It's easy to quiet my mouth... to physically remove myself...

It's a lot harder to quiet my mind, even with no 'mandatory' or 'scheduled' things I need to be doing. 

I definitely learned to appreciate 'free' time at a whole new level, oh finals week. 

But yeah, I found it hard to free myself from being 'occupied'... 

I realize, the only time I am able to 'quiet my mind', is when I pray. 

Walking and commuting, sitting, even with the intention to be 'still'... it's hard when I don't pray. It's a matter of minutes before my mind wanders or something else gets my attention. Duh Soomin... 

I wrote this around an year ago: 'I want to be free, but can I ever be free from my thoughts?' , around my toughest time.. and now, His timing of just.. amazing revelation through prayer an year later. Wow. Prayer = freedom. 

I want You to teach me. 

How do You want me to hold them? 

Without holding onto them too tight, 

but tight enough because I know they're precious to You? 

Always remembering they are Yours. 

I had a good thirty minute phone conversation with the madre this morning. It was good. She's been reading... really reading the Word and I could tell her heart has softened. It blew me away when she said that she is not so worried because God will make a path for her. Dahh... God You are so faithful. 

And  It was funny when she was giving me a lecture on my doing-things-last-minute habit (which I deserve to hear) about tuition and things and compared it to 'missing a bus' (that I would need to catch, can't just hop on another, I am guessing)... And somehow, about how if I don't manage to find a boy in college, there's always grad school and work... Haha I swear my mom wants me to date.