Dear Soomin-

Hello senior Soomin. It seems a very long time from now until I am you. I hope that by right now you have grown in your walk with God and become a servant leader in your youth group. I hope that you have learned to love yourself not by the things you do but by how God values you. I hope that you have been a great encouragement to your family, especially your mom. I hope that you tried your best at school and have no regrets about not using what God has given you. I hope that you have been brave and tried new things and challenged yourself. I hope that you have been involved at school and maybe been a class officer. I hope that despite your shy personality you have been bold for things you care about. I hope that you have established few relationships where you can tell what you're feeling and reveal your true entire self and find comfort in the relationships. I hope that you have improved your flute skills and play in the cys senior orchestra. Most of all I hope you have managed the talents God has given you faithfully and shared His love with others and let others see Him in you.

-Soomin, 6-3-05




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i sound like a freshman all right haha.
oh man...
my lit teacher freshman year had us write a letter to our graduating senior selves.
and today i visited her and got this back along with other things we did in the class...

most of the things in the letter did not surprise me...
and even just reading "getting to know you" with questions like my favorite book (little prince), thing i'm best at (i wrote sleeping-__-), who i'd like to be remembered as (someone who made a difference), what i'd like to change most about the world ("it needs more love" ... =__=)...
i don't think i have changed much at all through these four years, though i have definitely grown and my eyes were opened to so many things. but really. i am still best at sleeping. puhaha. and even favorite band is the same (it has come back to switchfoot).

yeah. i think that's a good thing.
i put... i'd like to see myself as a servant leader in yg... playing in cys senior orchestra... maybe even running for a class officer at school... certain "positions"that i probably thought would carry some meaning.

so i had a pretty good picture of where i'd like to be... and for the most part, for the most of all part... i guess i could give myself a pat on the back. but i really had no idea, how God was going to get me there.

He's still doing some intense molding all right... haha... will be doing.
but i am so, so glad, that i've let Him
not so much because i am so content with where i am/who i am now but
it's because that i've let Him that i am able to see who He is so much clearer and be confident in who He is


'His ways are always the best'...