i am really exhausted
and my schedule and list of things to do the next two weeks, next month, next couple months is ridiculous, it makes me want to cry and laugh at the same time

i am really fortunate to have my tutoring job
and i am really fortunate and God totally provided for me for all my scheduling to work out
with hangook market even after telling them about Vietnam and Mexico.
a big burden is gone :) thank you

well
i expect to become more knowledgeable about kpop after this job puha
and more about korean culture
and experience! i need i need. in the real 'working' world -.-
and.. with money. as much as i hate money right now...

i am really bad with carrying out numerous small tasks, as i'm finding out more at work
i really think i can only store like 2-3 short term informations in my brain, when the average is 7 for people. i wish i was part of the more blessed population. haha... but i am better at thinking/concentrating on 1 thing, deeply, reeeally deeply. it can be a bad thing at times. a lot of times. but good at times too.

eh. my boss said she feels worried about my first day alone on thursday. i am too. =__=






"it's just that... everything is happening at once"

well said by a friend i can't remember. oh man... what more can i say.









'You are Holy, Holy, Holy... all of heaven cries Holy, Holy, God...'

what does it mean to sing that?
it means... that i trust Him to provide for me. such as job and financial matters, and physical and emotional strength.
it means... that i will obey Him to love even when the world tells me it's unfair or too yielding
it means... that i will choose to listen to the truth instead of all other voices that seem to get everyone else's attention
it means... that i will turn my eyes towards who He is and simply respond, and the gravity and depth of the problems will seize to matter

that i will honor who He is through my decisions, work, and relationships


that's all i'm doing...