Even though it's the new year, I can't help but feel cluttered and think about unresolved things. New Year's Eve is usually my favorite day of the entire year. Because reflecting back on the year just makes me stand in awe of His provision, wisdom, sovereignty. Though my approach and desire for the new year have not changed, I feel more uneasy than usual. And why now? After God's been so faithful and present and revealing of Himself and His will the past week? 

Maybe because I'm not sure if those unresolved issues are really unresolved, or something that I need to accept? Or is it on my part? They bother me. I can't do anything about them though. But wait and trust that He will convict me to act if that's what He wants. I need to learn to leave it at that and not sink into the dreadful, familiar thoughts. 

I just said so myself a couple days back that it takes more faith to be broken. I think my failure to express this to another still says that I trust myself more than I trust in Him to compensate for my lack-of's, although I justify myself with various reasons with this tendency. 

And it's okay to leave it at that.

It's okay to leave a post like that.